I have been seriously working harder than I ever recall working in undergrad in my MBA program. I am working full time, dealing with some serious emotional turmoil, and putting everything that I have left over into school. I am staying up way past my usual grandma bed time to ensure that I do not let my group members, or myself, down. So far, it has paid off. I received an A- in both of my first two courses: Management and Stats. Now, we've moved on to two beasts: Accounting and Economics.
I know my weaknesses and purely qualitative subjects like these are definitely them. So, I have hired tutors from Wyzant to ensure that I have a grasp on the material. These next eight weeks are going to be completely grueling.
Every moment that I'm awake, I'm wondering when I can take my next nap. Then, I'm up till around 1:30 am each night ensuring that I'm getting my reading and assignments done. There are definitely moments where I wonder what I was thinking when I signed up for this program. But, I try to remind myself that this will really pay off when it's all over in 2015.
2015 sounds like it's so far away, but time really does pass quickly. I take comfort in knowing that I will always get through something. To put things into perspective, I turned 30 in Afghanistan. My friends there took me out to dinner and made sure that I felt special in our meager surroundings.
I had my 31st birthday just over a week ago. After a really tough year, that I never thought I'd see the end of. It was a really great to dance and cut loose with people who matter to me. And, just have fun after being so focused on high performance for the past few weeks.
It's common to make new year's resolutions, but I've also made some new year of life resolutions:
1) Live the life that I want to live. Too often we're worried about what people will think and say if our decisions fall out of the societal norms. I've been debating getting a nose ring for years. I wanted to wait till after I was done with my time in the Army Reserves. So, the day after my birthday, I said: "Screw it." And, did it.
The next day at work and at school were hilarious because everyone was looking but no one said a thing about it. Even though you could tell that they really, really wanted to.
2) Don't settle. Don't make yourself ok with things that you are, in your gut, not ok with. This applies to work, school, or your relationships. It will slowly eat at you. It will likely result in some tough decisions, but you will be happier
3) Don't worry. Be happy.